Don't go please, Da Da

Solar was doing quite exceptional during his first week of preschool. However, he became somewhat resistant last week and finally, he must have somehow decided to accept the whole idea of "school"...
This is a shot of about 5 seconds after I said goodbye to him on the bench. When I said goodbye to him, he would look at me with a slight frown but give me a kiss regardless. Once I stood up to carry Christine on my arm and walked towards the exit, he would then dash straight out to the slides and climb up to the top. The pic below showed him just made it to the top. Ms. Virginia knew Alexander needed the space and would start wiping down the slides as early as she can.



Next is a shot of Alexander atop the slides when I just began to pull out of the parking lot after reversing out from the parking stall. See the helpless blank stare on his face...



Finally, here's the last shot I took before driving away. Last week, I watched him wailing at the top of his voice in this position. This week, he takes to his promise to his da da and stays calm. I would say goodbye to him from my car to him in my loudspeaker voice. Then, he would wave back at me in his own unique wrist-only way.



According to his homeroom teacher Ms. Wanda, he's getting better with the crying now. On the other hand, we've been seeing problems with the #1 and sometimes #2 almost everyday since Monday. I know he needs to learn to cope with this "little stressful situation" of preschool himself for his own good. Yet, somewhere in me feels like a thousand scorpions stinging inside.
Even though he never says it out loud, probably because I've told him sternly that he HAS TO STAY, I can clearly hear him saying, "da da please don't go, no no." I know deep down that with Alexander as my son, I am already having it easy, but it's still very difficult to leave him like that every morning.
I pray to the Almighty Father that Solar will overcome this bit of separation anxiety in no time. I pray to the Lord to give me strength to control my emotions. Amen.